Time
They say time heals all
Yet I’ve been waiting to see
Just that magical power
It has yet to have on me
Stuff’s been goin’ on
As long as I remember
Nothing going right
I wish things were like back in September
The people renewed
A summer away
Changing just like time
Day after day after day
I see the new faces
And see the new fads
I watch the new games
And it makes me so mad
Time has yet to show me,
Just what it can really do
The shit that’s been goin’ on
It’s nothing ever new
The same results
Of a failed try
And the same names
Making me want to cry
I sit here thinking
Of how it would be
If I was never here
Maybe people would see
I know it’s not them
I know that it is me
Yet still I can do nothing
To change, and make them see
That the person I am
Is just like them
They base it on materials
And not what’s inside
What you wear and who you hang with
Matter more than the pain they make you bear
They know not what they do
Again that’s nothing new
I wish I was like them
Just for one day
To finally feel that feeling
Of being on the “inside”
Talking with the people
And cracking all the jokes
Knowing what its like to be loved
Not feeling all alone
Having someone there
To know just how you feel
At any given time
Finally getting where you want to go
And not where you’ve yet to arrive
The anguish they instill
Knows no boundaries but of their will
Regardless of what I say
They do it everyday
I cannot win this race
So I wait for time to pass
Simply trying to get to that day
When I can be that guy in the class
Making the jokes, and having the friends
Being liked and wanted around
Not sitting in the back, wishing I was up there with them
Doctors say its normal
To feel like you’re alone
I bet they never felt this way
Feeling in that zone
Time has yet to heal
The scars that they have made
I just want to be like them
Regardless of the cost
Nothing I’ve ever wanted more
Than a sucha simple thing as this
You’ve seen the people I write about
Wandering the halls
With the friends all in group
Or standing at the wall
I want to be that guy
Who everyone really likes
And not the one I am now
To be looked at and have them say “wow”
Simple acceptance is all I want
From people I know I will never know
Sitting up in my room writing
As I slowly look at the window at the snow
I think where they are, and who they are with
What they are doing, and why the refuse to dismiss
That we can’t all be like them
And see what they do
Just hot they act and what they say
Really puts us through
Time has yet to come
And fix what they have done
Until then I just want to take the gun
And make this all ok
I want to go away
Just run far far away
You will never see
Just what you’ve done to me
How the simple things you’ve done
Have changed my history
Time when will you come
And make this all ok
I am waiting for you here
Each and ever year.