Seeing Who You Really Are
I now know who you are
And now see how you dress
I know how you act
And yet I wish to know more
I see people surround you
Just wanting to talk
And I wish I was like you
With all you have, and all you are
I know I cannot be like you
Have what you have, do what you do
But all I want is a chance
To try and see what its like
There is no way I can ever try to achieve what you have
The ultimate gift in life of acceptance and happiness
Yet for an unknown reason, I have neither of those
And just for a moment wish to see what its like
I don’t even get the time of day
It’s like I’m always in the way
No matter where I go
Or who I’m with
No one can fill that void
The void of what I don’t have
And what I know you do
I sit here thinking
Wondering everyday
Just what I’m doing wrong
And why things are this way
They I have a lot
Though I know I have not
The only thing I want
To be like you
You’ve got it all and you know it
It all comes so easily to you
And hard for me
There is not a reason for me to ever try
For all I do is fail and fail again
I sit here wondering,
What left there is to try
Knowing I’ve tried all I can,
All that’s left is to die
Not having what I want
And watching you each day
Makes it harder to live
And know just what to say
I’m nervous when I’m around you
Afraid of fucking up
I sit there feeling alone
Knowing how things are,
It chills me to the bone
I wish you just knew
How hard things are for me
Just wanting you to know
And just making you look and see
You’ve got it what everyone wants
Yet only a few can taste
Just what you have to offer
While the others sit and wait
Thinking of those few days
When you did notice me
Pains me even more, knowing it wasn’t because of what you knew
But because of what you’ve yet to know
You probably don’t even remember my name,
Or why I was there
And thinking of that, just turns my world upside down
I wish I was like you
Until now I’ve yet to see
Just what I’m really lacking
And just what you, will never see